Indulge !

Abstinence or indulgence ? What's the real mantra of life ? Renounce everything worldly, all pleasures of being alive , sex ? Power? Money? Gratification? Everything ? Abstain from all this and live a life of saint, above everything, not effected not connected ? Is that the way to living a complete life ? Or is it by enjoying every little pleasure that life has to offer? Immersing oneself in the music of life, singing along ? Like the way osho said ? Indulge ! 

Pretty confusing it is...i wonder while reading the verses of Gita sitting out side my hotel room in middle of the night.. The irony being that while I read these verses of Gita I can hear a woman moaning in ecstasy of some wild sex.. thanks to man who is pleasuring her as I write these words. I am wondering is that what's happening in the room next to me is the real way of life or is it that we denounce everything incl ever so powerful n pleasurable sex and lead life of a saint. Controlling all our desires, abstaining from everything that provides us gratification in some form or other. We are so controlled by our desires that they rule our lives and become the soul motivation for each and everything that we do in life. May be I will never find my answers. May be there are no answers . I personally don't want to denounce all the pleasures of life. Otherwise life would be so drab. Would there be any point in leading such dumb life actually. Is it really possible? Is it not better to live doing everything that gives you happiness and pleasure. Won't that be a complete life  than the one of abstinence? I wonder

FLOAT : A NEW EXPERIENCE

Tonight I experienced something that i've never before. I could not understand it, but it was kind of divine and something too powerful. I Was sitting alone under the open sky, watching the stars above. My dog was sitting near me, making sounds of her presence, which were kinda bothering me. I just wanted to be left all alone. Just alone, not a soul, not a sound to disturb me. I just didn't want to be disturbed at all. So I sent her away. Then i don't know when while watching the stars above i drifted, my eyes rolled up. I was inside my head, watching  the darkness towards the centre of my forehead. I could feel everything around me, the distant sound of a barking dog, the sound of wind flowing through the forest, the sounds of night, and the silence of the night too. For some reason, I had been emotionally disturbed in the evening, just few hours before I had settled here.

Life is a Stage

It was a dark night, the rain drops were making a gentle soothing sound as they hit the ground, he, sitting in his balcony, smoking on his so called toned down cigarette, was sipping on a feel good scotch. His favorite singer's voice played on in the background, it  was famous Mr Jagjit Singh.

He had been wondering what he was upto in his life. He had always guarded his faith, that he would make it big some day. Some day would come when he would be, where he was supposed to be. A Mukam in hindi, means destination.

He was an emotional man, lead by his heart more than his head. He was leader, he loved to command. There was a soldier inside him. Being in command of his men, somehow came

LOVE!

 

Today, Someone i know made me think about this emotion called LOVE, again.. I most of the times presumed that i know enough already, about this breathtakingly cruel emotion. But i guess i still have a lot to learn and endure before i can really be sure of this emotion. So here i am once again, writing about love and in the process attempting to clear my own mind i guess. I was telling this friend of mine that love never stays forever and that it always comes with an expiry date! Yes i said that and i know that for sure. Its not that fact that i've got any issues with, but yes i've got huge issues with why? Why so? Why there has to be an expiry date to something so beautiful, so pure and so powerful and overpowering? Why does love die? Why it has to, one way or the other? I know change is the essence of life. everything HAS to keep changing in order to continue to exist. Nothing in this world can be a constant for too long. A constant cannot have a life. I told this friend of mine to go slow and take her time to get over her pain. She just said...slow? I've stopped. I knew exactly what she meant when she said that. Thats the CONSTANT..i was talking about...

Reality

I know many have been through this..these lonely, aware nights..the feeling of running away from something, scared of being alone and lonely..but confused which way is it better..being with someone or being all alone, just by yourself..being with someone sometimes just seems a more scarier a thought, because u know its one big vicious circle and it ends right there, where u were standing before being with someone happened...you just start feeling scared of being with someone..some times just being alone and lonely starts appearing much better a proposition..you yearn for someone but then you don't want to go through it all once more over and again, leaving you more screwed up than the last time..whats the solution? Whats the better bet? Can bets be better really? After all its a bet,

Vote of Thanks

In my first post on this blog, i would like to place on record my sincere thanks to the person who has pushed me, kicked me, motivated on the whole to start this blog. Thank you dear. As desired by this person, i shall be publishing every single word that i write, straight on this blog. Looking forward to a long association with this blog and hoping that i am able to put in something substantial here, which may benefit readers of this blog in one way or other. I would love to remain anonymous here. Thank you dear.